In everything that he undertook in the service of God’s temple and in obedience to the law and the commands, he sought his God and worked wholeheartedly. And so he prospered (2 Chronicles 31:21).
These blog entries contain many of my thoughts, but not usually personal narratives; however, this one may be worth sharing and hopefully be encouraging.
A few years ago, I felt led to host a bible study in our home for ladies in our area. I had some people in mind, and the book and the time frame chosen. All systems go! Then all the reasons why I shouldn’t/wouldn’t/couldn’t started moving to the forefront. I even made excuses for people without even asking them, not to mention the excuses that I made for myself.
When the time had passed, I knew that I blew it! I experienced a sadness and heaviness that’s hard to explain. I felt that I let so many people down—my neighbors, myself, and especially God. It felt like I was on the dock watching my ship sailing away in the distance, too far to come back for me.
But God is so merciful. He doesn’t write us off when we drop the ball. When I first got the idea of writing a journal into a blog, I had a ton of legitimate excuses. I had never followed one myself, didn’t know anything about formats, or where, or how, or what, or who. All I knew was that I wasn’t going to say, “Don’t send me” again.
It has been challenging, but not concerning content; sometimes I can’t wait to get my thoughts down on paper. The challenges come in my attitude, and it’s funny because they are two opposites—lack of confidence and pride. But that’s a story for another day.
I just pray for the needs of each person who is reading, and pray that they will see the message that God wants them to derive, whether I wrote about it or not (He can do that!) I also pray that when I know that He is nudging me to do something that I will not use my own reasoning, but just say, “Send me.”
One of my friends used to always encourage by saying, “When you stick your neck out, your body just kinda follows.” Or more biblically, if you take the first step, God will show you the next.